A splash of light from my iPhone guided me through the dark to my car last night. The wedding guests were long gone and only one light glowed in the winery Bistro behind me. 

Pausing in a clearing, I gazed up at the stars crowded around a sliver of moon. My frosty breath rose to greet them, along with a regret of never learning the constellations beyond the Big and Little Dippers. 

Frost coated the windshield of my car, although it wasn't even midnight. I dug my community college ID from my purse – it's good for scraping ice but not much else these days – and wished I had my gloves.

My headlights cut through the darkness on the winding road leading home through the hills. I seemed to be the only person out driving. Tom had left the porch lights on for me, a welcome sight, and Belle greeted me near the road, but inside, the house was silent; everyone was already snug in bed.

I turned off the lights and snuggled under the covers myself, not even thinking one thought about my poor plants, the aloe and bougainvillea I'd faithfully watered all summer, trying to help them survive the drought.

This morning I feared I'd find nothing but wilted, frozen leaves, but the aloe was still fresh and green, and fuchsia blossoms still dotted the bougainvillea. The rock wall where they're nestled must have retained enough afternoon sunshine to protect them through the cold night.

Max, on the other hand… that poor puppy can barely stand on his dysplasia-cursed elbow. I guess the cold gets to him like it gets to the rest of us feeling our age in our joints.

He was determined to join me and Belle on our morning walk, though. His face fell when I suggested he 'stay', so I said come on, then. He hopped along mostly on three legs, but his face shone, he was so eager and happy to hit the road.

Belle and I walked slow, following his pace for the most part. A few times he found a soft spot in the woods where he'd lie down and rest.

His appetite was down again this morning, too – I hand fed him a few pieces where I'd hidden his aspirin and he readily took it from my hand, as well as his glucosamine supplements, but otherwise had no interest. Belle seems to be on a sympathy hunger strike – her bowl is untouched and I refuse to hand feed her!

So the bowls are back on the kitchen counter. I'll try again later… maybe with a few pieces of cheese or some other goody in there. No more hand feeding, but I have no qualms against bribery.

Meanwhile, here it is a cold but sunshine-filled Monday and the week ahead is going to fly by, faster than usual, I believe. I'm going to be wearing a dozen different hats, trying hard to give each a fair share of my time without stressing over any of them too much, or spending hours hatless from indecision about which to wear next.

I'm grateful for each one and that's what I'm going to (try to) keep in mind. 

I hope all of you have a beautiful, busy, fulfilling, love-filled and peaceful week!

(And if you have a minute, please say a little prayer for my Max. Thank you!)

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18 responses to “Summer, a fading memory”

  1. Gail Avatar

    Poor Max! It always amazes me that no matter how poorly a dog may feel, the walk is something they eagerly participate in–despite–or in spite of–their limitations. How I wish I could ignore aches and pains in the same manner! Dear Lord, please help Max through this rough patch and back to the road of good health for at least a few more years with his beloved family. Amen!

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  2. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    Thank you, Gail! And thanks for reminding me to go finish watching that video you posted the other day. I've started it twice and got interrupted both times! But I've gotten far enough to be amazed by the "dance"!

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  3. Bella Casa Avatar

    Oh your dear, sweet puppy. How old is Max? Say a prayer for him …absolutely without hesitation for prayer is what opens the heart to allow God inside.

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  4. Jennifer Richardson Avatar

    oh Max. My Libby is in the same creaky boat
    and it aches my heart to watch her body wince
    alongside her ebullience.
    Lord soothe and sort Libby and Max.
    And I so understand the ice scraping community college card!
    Feeling you there.
    Thank God for those eyes for beauty
    …a rare treasure you’ve been given
    and it’s a joy to be near.
    I really believe it will be okay, friend.
    I really do.
    Much love and season’s graces,
    Jennifer

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  5. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    "…wince alongside her ebullience." I love your way with words – that's such a perfect description. Yes, please Lord, soothe and sort Libby and Max. Thanks, Jennifer!

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  6. lisleman Avatar

    Poor dog. It does make you wonder what they are thinking.
    BTW Cassiopeia is easy to find. It looks like a ‘W’. I wish we had clear non-light polluted skies like you do.

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  7. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    Thank you, Jan! I think Max is only about 8 years old, but he's a big, big dog. He's suffered from the elbow dysplasia since he was about 18 months old. 

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  8. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    Oh, thank you! I'll look for it next time. Our skies aren't as clear and dark as they used to be – the winery is a little farther out plus we had a cold front come through and I think it cleared the skies. It was gorgeous!

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  9. Hilary Avatar

    Aww that poor sweetie. My neighbour’s youngish dog struggles along like that too. Always gung-ho to play with other dogs on the street or go for his walk. You can be sure that I’ll keep Max in my best thoughts.

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  10. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    Thank you so much, Hilary. Like many of us, he has the heart of a puppy and is having a tough time understanding why his body isn't behaving the way it should!

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  11. brian miller Avatar

    awww…i feel for max…our older cat is really starting to have a hard time getting around…not sure how this winter will be for her actually…

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  12. Juana Avatar

    Barbara, Barbara, Barbara!! The first four paragraphs belong in a novel!!! The whole post is wonderful… but those four paragraphs are GRAND!!!!
    Yes, I will say a prayer for Max. I am so sorry he is hurting so much…
    Hugs

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  13. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    Thank you!!!! He was so much better today. Still limping a little but playful with Belle and he even ran a little!

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  14. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    It's so tough on them! The high temps we had this summer were hard on him, too, and I think in a way he's enjoying the cold weather – he's got a thick coat! But we can see the difference in his elbow. Wish I could put a little sweater sleeve on it! (I know it would be in shreds the next day or I'd try it!) I'll say a prayer for your sweet old kitten.

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  15. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    It's so tough on them! The high temps we had this summer were hard on him, too, and I think in a way he's enjoying the cold weather – he's got a thick coat! But we can see the difference in his elbow. Wish I could put a little sweater sleeve on it! (I know it would be in shreds the next day or I'd try it!) I'll say a prayer for your sweet old kitten.

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  16. Wolf Pascoe Avatar

    I feel so bad for Max. It reminded me of a friend of our son’s who is sick with a fever in the hospital; many tests, but no diagnosis.
    A prayer for everyone.

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  17. Barbara Shallue Avatar

    As much as I love Max, having a sick child – especially if you don't know what's wrong – is much tougher. I'm sending up prayers for Nick's friend and his parents!

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  18. Crystal Clear Headlights Avatar

    Thank you for sharing this wonderful piece. It brought me hope and much more.

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